I am a big fan of my daily bread. This morning as I was waiting for my client's case to be called up at court I opened the book and began to read. This is how I normally read my daily bread I just open it and let it fly per say. Today's reading was the following: "A ship without a rudder is driven to and fro by the winds and waves so too when a man does not bother to work the virtues he needs, or if he abandons his good intentions, he is soon tempted by his own faults and weakness. I am the Lord, and I give strength in time of trial. Come to Me when things are not going well with you. Heavenly light and strength are often held back from you because you are slow to make use of prayer. How frequently before you get down to serious prayer, you look for peace in worldly consolations, and seek your happiness in natural enjoyments or earthly occupations. You will find little relief in anything until you realize that I am ready to help those who trust in me. There is no perfect assistance, no helpful advice, no lasting remedy unless it is blessed by My love and strengthened by My presence.
What I have learned in this journey is that I am not in control. I have learned that I must rely on my faith. I am a ship with out a rudder. I have often felt like I am just sailing with no direction. This is an accurate statement of my life. It is a life without purpose. It is a life of just being. Don't get me wrong we must go with the flow as I like to say a river always ends in the ocean even though there are beavers making damns.
What am I saying. I am not really sure. lol . I guess what I am saying is that I need to pray. I not only need to pray but I need to believe in the power of prayer. For it is in this prayer that we come to our Lord. He tells us over and over agin to come to him in the times of trouble but do we. I guess we do but do we truly. It is easy to come to pray when things are really bad but what about when things are only a little bad? Or do we come and say fix this Lord but you are not doing it right. Do we really believe in the power of prayer. i guess the question is do we have that faith. It is hard to have that faith. Some of us like me may feel unworthy others may feel that they are above faith. I don't have the answers I just have the questions. I guess it is a choice that we must make pray and have faith.