Lots of emotions going on today actually for the past few days. I believe it stems from being tired, and nauseous. Not to mention the hair loss. (on that note I am thankful that it is really just thinning not like others) I have been going from one extreme to the other, imaging that I am dying to fighting. A new one today guilt about others wanted me to fight and I am just not feeling like it at the moment. Guilt that I am not as sick as some people get during this fight. although the exhaustion is incredible.

I am thankful for our God for it is through him that I am gaining some sense of comfort.
I went to the get my ultrasound of my liver done this morning. We need to make sure that puppy is working. I guess the biggest thing I have realized in this journey is how ever encompassing this cancer is in one's life. It becomes crazy how your thoughts only center on this. It is always on your mind. Eveywhere you look you think about it. You read about it. Sure sometimes you will even use it to your advantage. (of course not me ;0) I am making an effort to remember that god is my center. I cannot forget that. I will not let this disease rob me of that. Focusing on the disease is a sin against God, for he is the center not the disease. 118:28 You are my God, and I will give you thanks; you are my God, and I will exalt you.