Ok so I decided right now I am in a very angry stage. Not at God or anything…I have no problems with that. I always feel that I am not above bad or weird things happening to me. I don't believe God punishes I believe that there are things we just have to go through. When I hear of bad things, don't get me wrong I don't wish them on me or my family, but neither do I believe that it could not happen to me. Rather I always think "why not me". However, I am angry that my family are so nonchalant about this almost not believing it. Questioning my sanity. Also I am angry at people telling me what to do and how it is no big deal. "millions of women have hysterectomies" well sure I, understand that but do they have cancer, do they have to go through radiation afterwards, do they have to have their lymph nodes removed. Do they have to have their rectum checked then, do they have to worry about the disease spreading to the breast because of the likelihood of it spreading. Ok now that I have that off my chest. I will let this go!! It is not there business I have to remember it is not happening to them so I can't expect them to understand. I would venture to say that it is probably a little selfish on my part to expect that. WOW :0)