I guess I must start by explaining this blog. This blog orinigally was going to be the start of our second adoption. Our daughter Kiley was adopted from Guatemala. We decided to start the process again but this time in the unknown realm of domestic adoption. On July 1, 2010 I dropped off the applicaiton and accompany documents and checks at the adoption agency on my way to my OBGYN for a followup from a D&C. I was excited I was dreaming of babies, I was smiling. The first words I told my OBGYN when he walked in to the room was we signed up with an agency and are officially started the process.
I knew I was in trouble because he smiled at me but not with the usual smile, you know the one that reaches the eyes. He sat down and told me "Dennise" we got the results of the D&C and I was extremely surprised by the results. You have Cancer. He continued to talk but I could not get past the word Cancer. What back up ..Stop the press..Cancer. I can honestly tell you that I did not hear anything he said. I did not understand a word he said. Seriously I think it was first for me not being able to concetrate. I normally can multi task, hearing and understanding different people. Even when Kiley was placed in my arms. I was able to do all of the legal paperwork but not so much this time. So now begins the journey and I decided that this blog would be a form of release for me.